Can you explain to me how going further into debt helps me? I really think the best idea is to get rid of all the people living off my pay check and let me have the money. That would be the best economic stimulus package. Smaller government = smarter government.

I am still alive. I have not fallen off the face of the earth. I have been rather busy lately. Finding time to type up a post has been scarce. I am doing well. I still work at the crazy ER. Oh... the stories that I could tell. Like the lady who was very angry that I would even dare to ask if she drank after she had just told me she smoked pot...... go figure. Or UDS (urine drug screen) that was positive not for one or two drugs but 4. and he had no clue why he would have gotten in an accident.

Praise the Lord I got another job on a per diem basis. It is as a MICN or mobile intensive care nurse. Basically I will be a paramedic and a nurse rolled into one. I can't wait to start.

I am enjoying being married. I can not believe it has been 9 months today. It seems like just yesterday I was in OK saying "I do."
Right now I am in Williamsburg, VA. We will be here for the next week. A whole week vacation. It is nice just kicking back and trying to relax. I am trying not to think of when we get home. Our Washer pump croaked out on us the night before we left so we have a bunch of dirty laundry and a had a load of soaking wet clothes to take with us on our vacation to finish up here. We will have to either fix the old washer which is 10 years old or get a new one. Beth would like a new one because the old dryer likes to add brown marks to our clothes.

Many times I have talked about struggling what to say to people when they see me. Being in critical care medicine I see people at their worst. I deal with the most stressful part of a persons life. Finding the words to say to people is hard. What are the right words to say to some one who thinks they are miscarrying? Or the ones who are? What do you say to the husband watching his wife die before his eyes? To the husband of the woman you just spend every last bit of energy trying to save?

We did all we could..... they will never know what that means. It takes so much energy to try to save a life.

Then there are the people who demand the world in the ER. You have to be nice and try to give them what they want but sometimes you wonder if you really needed the ER why in the world are you so picky about the number of times you tea bag was dipped or the time your dinner tray gets to you. I want to get a badge that says "I am here to save your @$$ not kiss it" or "if you are sick act like it." Also IV's are not exact science. Skill helps but it is not a 100%. We don't put them in for kicks. We need them. And sometimes it takes a few sticks to hit the vein. As a brand new nurse doing IV's I will hit it when the 14 yr old RN's miss. Telling us you only get one stick and then watching us like we are untrustworthy and are just trying to torture you does NOT HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh and if you are "allergic" to every drug under the sun except dilaudid and fentanyl and Vicodin, and you visit us more than 3 times for the same problem, we will label you as a drug seeker. If you are in that much pain see a pain management doctor.

Well I had better get to bed. Early morning tomorrow.

Brain injury is a crazy thing..... It brings people together for a few days to weeks.

It is one of the few times you have a patient that is totally out of it without even having one sedating drug. It is scary.